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i was on vacation in Gatlinburg & just got back yesterday. I went with my hubbie, my parents & sister. I had a lot of fun & it came right at the time when I needed it the most.

i don’t think I ate too bad, we ate a TON of fresh fruits & veggies, we did most of the cooking at the condo. but we did go out a little & splurge. but hey it’s vacation!  so I am going to weigh myself probably tomorrow so I know the damage & get back on track.

thank you to the ones who check in on me from time to time. I need that & I appreciate it so much.

have a great day!

http://www.gicare.com/pated/edtgs01.htm

I’m thinking of starting to eat like this eating plan.

my mother-in-law was at my house in indiana, she is from west virginia. her sister died. this has been very hard on her. She has had 3 siblings & her husband die in 2 years.

She’s sorta like “MA/Marie” off of “Raymond.” This visit was different–there wasn’t any complaining about the house, she didn’t clean anything, she was more subdued than normal. After the last few funerals she was very angry & hard on everyone, this time she was just tired, beat.

With her in the house I feel my space is unsettled. Her & I got along pretty good this time. But I still feel threatened by her presence because in the past she has been very hard on my husband & me. PLUS I was on the tail end of my period while she was here  so that made me emotionally unstable & bloated & cranky. I weighed myself at my parents house Saturday & it said I lost 4 lbs, BUT I feel WAY bloated today so I am going to bight the bullet & just do it & face what the scale says.

i don’t feel well today at all. I am going to start my period next week and I am experiencing all of that PMS has to offer. I am ashamed to look at the scale. Even though I did all of that activity last week, for the last 2 days I have been soo hungry & sooo thirsty, also very emotional. I feel lost & confused, its hard to think & concentrate. I wish I didn’t have to go through this every month.

Ok so I haven’t done the day-by-day workouts…but I have walked 3 times this week & did several HOURS worth of massages. So I feel pretty good about that.
I have such a hard time sticking to a structured eating plan. I go great for a few days then right when I see results…BAM! I think I can do it on my own. I feel like I am setting myself up for failure, like I am using some sort of self-sabatoge(sp?) method. I have a self-help workbook that focuses on emotional eating. I think I need to start that back up again. I get too many small projects going & then I don’t have any energy left to focus. Again, possibly another self-sabatoge(sp?) method? I want to fix me, maybe THAT is the problem thinking that I am broken. No one wants to play with a broken toy. Instead of seeing myself as broken, I think I need to change my outlook to acceptance & then change. NOT that I am not worth the effort. I struggle with that alot, feeling that because I’m “FAT” that I don’t want to look or accept what I am. To top it all off I want to be done now. A healthy weight loss time frame for me is about 18-24 months. Logically I know this, but I want to be thin NOW.

 UHUGUHUGHGHGHG!
Tomorrow WILL be better…Tomorrow WILL be better…Tomorrow WILL be better…

I did the strength session for beginners even though I would rather have sat & did nothing. I did it & I feel good, accomplished, happy & proud of me.

I walked 45 min, stretched for 15 AND gave the dog a bath.

Plus I need to do the activity that is assigned for Day 2 of the ‘12 weeks to weight loss’ program.

I am feeling  a bit lazy….it’s hot & I wanna be laying in a cool climate.
But if I am ever going to change my body I have to change what I do with/to it.

I walked for 35 min today. GO ME!

http://exercise.about.com/cs/exbeginners/l/blbegstrength.htm

Option 1:

• Beginners: Choose 1 of the workouts listed in the Beginners Interval Workout page. If you’re not comfortable with interval training or want to try something simpler, try one of these basic Beginner Cardio Workouts.
• Intermediate/Advanced: Try a more advanced 30-35 minute Intermediate Interval Workout or this Advanced Interval Workout. You can also visit my Workout Center for more cardio workout ideas.

Option 2:
Make your own interval workout: Begin by choosing an activity–walking, running, swimming, cardio machines, etc. then doing the following:

1. Warm up with about 5-10 minutes of light cardio
2. Increase the intensity for 2-3 minutes so that you’re working at a Perceived Exertion (RPE) at Level 5
3. For 1 minute, increase intensity (speed walking, running, hill-walking, etc.) to a Level 7-8
4. Recover at a lower intensity for 2-3 minutes
5. Alternate high intensity with low intensity for 20 or more minutes if you’re a beginner, more if you’re intermediate/advanced.